Blast from the Past

its a Friday night, I'm sitting at home and feeling extremely unwell. It has been a shit couple of weeks for moi and now to top it all off i may have come down with the flu.

It all started 11 years ago when i was at high school when i was constantly compared to someone else. it was always.."look how hard xxxx is studying, look how many activities xxxx is doing, see how well xxxx has done in the exams". Now i have grown heaps since then and no longer feel the need to be bothered by what anyone else is or isn't doing. But i have realised that this XXXX is like my kryptonite. The mere mention of his name is enough to crumble my defenses.

Thankfully i haven't had much contact with this XXXX. Two weeks ago i got an email that had mention of XXXX and how happy he and his parents are. AND it just threw me for a six. Later that night and a six pack of Johnny and coke later i started to feel marginally better. I just hate how things from your past can affect you even though you are a confident (most of the time) , professional. HATE it HATE it....